There are 2 steps to doing something:
- Making up your mind
- Committing yourself to that
In my personal experience, commitment is an issue – especially when I have made up my mind to do something.
There are times (like today/nowadays) when I am unable to make up my mind towards exactly what I want to do.
And then there are times when I am pretty much clear of what exactly I want/need to do, but I am unable to follow it through – from a commitment point of view.
I lack commitment more (not always though) than making up my mind.
I am going to get over this (I am not going to “try” it, I “will” get over this).
I’ve got a few things going on – personally(pertaining to just me, not my wife/kids/parents/relatives – just me – “personal”), professionally, family wise, financially etc – and I believe I am going to be “making my mind” on some of these things in about a week (or a “focused all-night-er” – perhaps tomorrow, may be…) and then I would be committing myself to the actions required for those.
Both of these things are extremely difficult.
- Making up your mind to do something (planning)
- Committing yourself to do those things (executing the planning)
Execution has been a bigger issue for me, yet, and I am going to eliminate this issue – by executing my plans the way they should be.
What are the things that I believe are needed for:
- Planning : Clarity of thoughts, written-down thoughts (prefer hard-copy version, if soft-copy is your thing then go ahead with that), revisit the thoughts every few days/weeks, bridge the gap between your “family persona” and “official persona”, bring your love for family to your work(not company), and bring your love for your work(not company) to your family, think more, give yourself “phone-free” or “distraction-free” time – daily, read what you “think” you are going to “plan”, be more focused, give attention to detail, be competitive, be fast, be faster, be more efficient, talk more, share more, feed your mind more, do not “indulge” in entertainment, do not be addicted to anything, be flexible, be strong and not rigid, be courageous and not bounded, be free, think more(yes, this is repeated, because it is important – THINK MORE)
- Execution: Will!
I lack(ed) will, hence the lack in execution, and I am catching up to my will… I still fail and falter, and I shrug off the problems every now and then by doing merciless introspection – I don’t make myself a fool, and I expect very high level of “common-sense” from myself during those introspection sessions – which usually kick-off with “Yes, Mr. JD, what the f*ck is going on?” and the answers start like “Well, you know how *something* is happening/about-to-happen, and I
think believe I must do this *something* with more focus, commitment and will”
Well – that’s a lot of stuff for a post that I thought would be 2 lines – I guess that’s what 3.30 AM does to you… removes the brakes of the thought-train, and it doesn’t stop… you have to jump out from the running train (missing on a lot of unexplored venues if you would have stayed on that train… but you are scared that you would never want to jump if you continue to ride…)